Last night I let go of something really beautiful. I had to, because it was the best thing for me. For my growth and my self-esteem and my sense of self-worth and I had to do it in order to continue on this journey that I'm just beginning.
Wow, it hurts though. This is the first time in my life I think I've ever made this kind of decision--chosen me over something or someone that feeds me, fills a void inside me. What I did was make a decision to look inside myself to find out why that frickin void is there in the first place. Anyway, life has seemed to make decisions for me up till now. But I'm trying to change that. I'm still getting used to tottering around on these new legs.
I said, "I have to be alone."
A wise man told me, "You're not alone, Kristin. You'll never be alone."
And I told him, "I know that. I don't mean I have to be alone. I mean, I have to be with myself."
3 days ago